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jasmasson ([personal profile] jasmasson) wrote2007-02-09 08:33 pm

Gift ficlet for my new friends...

Hi new friends (and old)!

Just discovered Supernatural… where have these boys been all my life?

Following the inspired Supernatural Friending Frenzy a gift ficlet to welcome my small number of new Supernatural friends.

Author: Jas Masson
Title: When Sam sleeps
Rating: G for gen
Disclaimer: Not mine, no money, not true, blah blah...
Characters: Dean, Sam, gen brotherlove only
Summary: Just a moment in the morning when Sam is asleep



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When Sam sleeps, he sprawls. He is not a tidy sleeper; hugeass limbs spread out, body loose and sprawling. When they were young and slept in the same bed, Dean would wake up to find himself chased to the edge, nearly falling off, with Sam’s body pressed up against him. And he was bigger than Sam then.

When Sam has a vision in his sleep, he whimpers and thrashes about in his bed, tangling himself in the sheets, all creased forehead and flailing limbs.

When Sam has a nightmare - not a vision, just a normal nightmare because his life is full of some pretty horrible stuff - he curls up into a ball.

He’s obviously had a nightmare last night because that’s the position Dean finds him in this morning. The nightmare is clearly over and Sam is sleeping peacefully now, but Dean can see the remnants of it in his fetal position, and in the mess of his hair where he’s been sweating.

Incredibly, in that position he looks almost small. Freakish long limbs all curled up, giant man-beast shoulders folded in on himself and ridiculously ginormous hands tucked away under his pillow. Of course, Dean doesn’t need for him to look small to feel protective. Sam could grow to seven feet tall and weigh 300 pounds, and Dean would still think SammySammyMySammy when he looks at him, but this does make it worse.

Sam’s face is young peeking out of his blankets, and his hair assists in making him look about twelve. This position always makes Dean’s chest ache with the need to protect Sam from anything that could hurt him, to do fucking anything to make him smile and, right this moment - although he would deny it to the death - makes him want to smooth the tangled hair away and kiss Sam’s forehead.

Obviously, Dean counteracts these instincts as much as he can with a big brother’s natural imperative to annoy his little brother. So he compromises by hiding Sam’s sneakers before going out to get a super-girly latte and a muffin to wake Sam up with.

[identity profile] lorelei633.livejournal.com 2007-02-10 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, darling Jas. *hugs you* This is just a little slice of heaven. In just a few words, you've managed to capture this moment in time, this perfect snapshot of Sam and Dean's relationship. It's just achingly beautiful, so moving. This line: and Dean would still think SammySammyMySammy when he looks at him literally brought tears to my eyes.

Thank you so much for this gorgeous and touching portrait of the boys.

[identity profile] jasmasson.livejournal.com 2007-02-10 11:10 am (UTC)(link)
Hi honey. Thanks ;-) So glad you liked it; I just find Dean's love for Sam the most lovely thing. Everytime he looks at him I just want to give him a big hug (and perhaps some other stuff, but we'll just leave it there ;-)

[identity profile] lorelei633.livejournal.com 2007-02-10 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
LOL! I love what you said about Dean's love being like another character on the show. That's it exactly. Sammy is Dean's whole reason for being and he has been since they were little boys. Ah, Dean just makes my heart ache. He's really a tragic figure when you think about it. He has nothing of his own and he never has. Every single moment of his entire life has been for Dad and for Sammy. There's nothing left for him if they're not there, and Dean says so in the show, again and again, and you can see that bottomless pit of fear in his eyes, that terror of being alone and having nothing left to live for.

GAH, I just want to hug him. And Sam. And then Dean again. And then Dean and Sam... *g*